Have you wondered why sometimes your thinking, buzzing mind goes over and over the same material from the past? In not such a kind light? I mean, not in your favor?
This is what the psychologists call “negative self talk”. Some of us have it worse than others. I am one who has not, even into my sixth decade, busted that issue. As a matter of fact, my picky long term memory is so well marinated, that I can call up even the tiniest little memory of something that happened long ago, maybe even a momentary exchange, and I warp it around until I am the one who caused the problem. Insane! I know.
But what would it FEEL like in your soul-being, if you could let these memories be what they are…experiences from your past, that have the value of teaching you, guiding you mostly to what you really want, instead of some perceived failure, resentment, self-condemnation? What if you could ACTUALLY give yourself a dose of self-forgiveness instead?
I recommend it. Not that I do this myself! Because none of us are all-good or all bad. As you allow that forgiveness for yourself, something quite beautiful opens. A space between your past and your future, otherwise known as the “present moment”, or NOW. From here you can release and begin again. Anew. With an open heart.
Imagine all the sleepless nights, the waking up at 3 am and ruminating, that would end. Imagine actually letting the past be holy. Why do I say that? As you see people, ideas, memories as part of your evolutionary movement, you open your mind to compassion, first for yourself, and then as a whole-hearted person who is thereby freed of the torment of judgment and criticism.
Life gets a lot simpler. You don’t have to second-guess yourself. You don’t have to try so hard to be right, or good, or not bad. This is a powerful medicine. It means that you can greet your experiences with warmth, appreciation, and generosity. You don’t have to play small, or stifle your voice. You can be a beacon. You can shine light, and shine YOUR light!
I hope this helps. I will be speaking more about this subject in upcoming Blog posts. Meanwhile, send yourself some love. Really. You are amazing…